I can’t find the words to write what I want to. I’ve started three different posts about Mini and I can’t make it through a single one. My goal was not to write a post that would make you cry but the fact is, I’m so emotional tonight. Mike’s away on business and I miss him.
I’m feeling incredibly thankful and undeserving of how God has blessed me. I went back to posts I wrote in Feb to read my own words about our adoption story. So many things came flooding back to me. Sometimes I was like “did I say that? did I feel that way? I didn’t remember that!”
This month has felt like the fog of sleep deprivation lifted and I could really enjoy Mini every single day. Not that I didn’t love and adore her from the beginning. Oh, I did. But now that she and I are in a good groove, I’ve totally and completely fallen head over heels in love with her. I just can’t believe how good the Lord has been to me. After feeling like He took so much away from me last year, I’m feeling the exact opposite this year. He’s given to me so abundantly that I get choked up as I make a mental list of my blessings. That’s so like Him, isn’t it?
Today I was thinking a lot about Steven Curtis Chapman and his family. God certainly took away from them something very, very precious. With you, I’m grieving the loss of Maria and I’m obsessive about keeping up with their manager’s blog to see how they’re coping.
SCC’s music has played a major role in my Christian walk – God has used his songs to shape many of my beliefs, in fact. I’ve been a fan since 1987. Yes, with an 8, when his tapes were bright blue and so was my mascara. Since 7th grade I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve seen him in concert or stood in line for his autograph. I don’t know him personally but it seems that he writes songs with an authentic heart, always wanting and accepting God’s Will and clinging to God’s Word even in the most difficult of times.
We know where Maria is and she is dancing, as her daddy here on Earth wrote in his popular song, Cinderella. I don’t know how he’s been able to get back on his tour and sing that song every night, but God has given him the strength to do so. I listened to it in the car today and I couldn’t even get through the first verse. I want to enjoy every dance God gives me with the little girl He has entrusted to me.
That’s what’s on my heart tonight.
And now, the pics. I can’t decide which are the best ones so you get to see them all tonight. I get a kick out of how her photo shoots tell a story. This one is about wardrobe malfunctions- hee hee.
Take a quick peek at how she’s grown – click here